{"id":4840,"date":"2024-01-22T22:33:45","date_gmt":"2024-01-23T03:33:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/?p=4840"},"modified":"2024-01-22T22:39:18","modified_gmt":"2024-01-23T03:39:18","slug":"haunted","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/index.php\/2024\/01\/22\/haunted\/","title":{"rendered":"Haunted"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote has-text-align-right is-style-plain has-black-color has-text-color has-link-color has-medium-font-size wp-elements-69f196fc797693326bc7e22513548446 is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\" style=\"font-style:italic;font-weight:900\">\n<p class=\"has-text-align-right\">&#8220;I am my own ghost, haunting the memories I love the most.&#8221;<\/p>\n<cite>Author Unknown<\/cite><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-group\"><div class=\"wp-block-group__inner-container is-layout-constrained wp-block-group-is-layout-constrained\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full is-resized is-style-default\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"576\" src=\"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/April-Snowy-Landscape.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4843\" style=\"width:838px;height:auto\" srcset=\"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/April-Snowy-Landscape.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/April-Snowy-Landscape-300x169.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/April-Snowy-Landscape-768x432.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/April-Snowy-Landscape-520x292.jpeg 520w, https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/April-Snowy-Landscape-610x343.jpeg 610w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/474266__mkzing__bell-with-crows-2.mp3\" autoplay preload=\"auto\"><\/audio><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Sources<br>&#8220;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/50711561@N00\/13615310303\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\">April Snowy Landscape<\/a>&#8221; by&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/50711561@N00\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\">tvdxer<\/a>&nbsp;is licensed under&nbsp;<a href=\"https:\/\/creativecommons.org\/licenses\/by\/2.0\/?ref=openverse\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\">CC BY 2.0<\/a>.<br>&#8220;<a href=\"https:\/\/freesound.org\/people\/MKzing\/sounds\/474266\/\">Bell with Crows<\/a>&#8221; by <a href=\"https:\/\/freesound.org\/people\/MKzing\/\">MKzing<\/a> is licensed under <a href=\"https:\/\/creativecommons.org\/publicdomain\/zero\/1.0\/deed.en\">CC0 1.0 DEED<\/a>.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n<p>For this entry, I didn&#8217;t want to just choose a random photo simply because it was <em>pretty<\/em>&#8230; Thus, I ended up searching for hours to find the &#8220;perfect&#8221; image. In the beginning, nothing was screaming &#8220;THIS IS IT,&#8221; even after I searched a combination of items and terms, trying to use my hobbies and interests to find a photo that I connected with. Then I stumbled upon this one.<\/p>\n<p>At first, my mind went to &#8220;How creepy would this be at night?&#8221; which morphed into &#8220;What if in the middle of nowhere you started hearing the clang of church bells?&#8221; I thought the two together would create a perfectly sinister setting. I even ran with the idea of <em>For Whom the Bell Tolls<\/em> for an undisclosed amount of time before the realization hit&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>In January 2021, my father unexpectedly passed away; a hole was created, and it lingered. However, I was a new mom and never allowed myself to fully grieve&#8230; I felt I had to stay strong for my infant daughter, my mother, and my siblings &#8211; even as the &#8220;baby&#8221; of the family. We are now in 2024, three years later, and I still don&#8217;t think I&#8217;ve properly grieved.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;What originally drew me to the picture and the audio clip was mere intrigue and curiosity, and a knack for storytelling&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I see now that the two elements have combined to create the place I know I must face eventually. I know it&#8217;s a journey I must complete, but that doesn&#8217;t make it any less frightening. <em>This is the place of grief <\/em>&#8211; where I must process it as it comes and survive the night to find the day.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;I am my own ghost, haunting the memories I love the most.&#8221; Author Unknown For this entry, I didn&#8217;t want to just choose a random photo simply because it was pretty&#8230; Thus, I ended up searching for hours to find&#46;&#46;&#46;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":77,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[8],"class_list":["post-4840","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-student","tag-cc"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4840","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/77"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4840"}],"version-history":[{"count":12,"href":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4840\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4901,"href":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4840\/revisions\/4901"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4840"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4840"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/torch.cci.fsu.edu\/~lis5313\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4840"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}